~gembira vs kecewa: gembira menang!~

Assalamualaikum..

Well..rsenye pmbaca blog ni ckup aware dgn keadaan hati yg terluka ni..even smpai skang pn msih wonder, apakah status mereka, ape yg aq ptot wat..blah3..bnyk bnd nk wonder..tp..eat.love.pray..yup!keeping da spirit until today..Alhamdulillah..smpat broke down hny utk sehari..wlupn sehari itu juga sudah cukup mendukacitakan (sbb sptotnye lg matang n bersedia utk sebarang keadaan), tp still sehari je instead of sebulan atau setahun..lanjutan drpd senyuman, hari ni sekali lagi aq tersenyum..dgn cite mmbr aq yg kne ngurat dgn pakcik bus gara2 pakai baju cantik ckit dr hari2 biasa sbb hari ni akak die konvo..lawak gile..mmbr aq 2 mmg manis pn..tp pakcik bus??like...eewwww!!!haha!!

Ptg td menuntut hadiah dr junior yg comel + hensem +... (xley puji bnyk2 sbb nnt die kembang wlupn aq tau die mungkin xpenah sedar pn kewujudan blog nih)..dptla aq mkn double cheeseburger +fries + coke + chocolate sundae di mcd 2..all free of charges kcuali sundae sbb aq yg blnje diowg..owh..not to forget..miss drummer yg chanteq molek yg meneman aq sbb segan nk g berdua jek dgn encik junior..almaklumlah..encik junior aq nih artis yg glamor..jd xnklah mencipta pelbagai kontroversi dan memberi ruang kpd segala paparazzi untuk menjalankan kerja2 yg xbertauliah 2..huhu..apepn, mmg best + fun + kenyang..n wat aq happy..credits to both of them..

Apepn, aq berharap kemenangan yg dicapai oleh sang kegembiraan ini berkekalan..insyaALLAH..amin.. :)

~senyuman~

Assalamualaikum..

Bangun pagi hari ni, aku mampu tersenyum pada diri aku sendiri..ye..mula mencintai diri sendiri mungkin..bukan gile okeyh! ;p sometimes u should please urself..it's worth in giving spirit..look into the mirror..look deeply..n try to feel so grateful that HE created u as perfect as u r now..tell urself that u r beautiful..seriously it works..at least for a while..so u can walk out with a smile on ur face..n it makes people pleased 2 see u..it's good, isn't it? :)

Nothing much to say for today..it's still early though..nothing much happen..but yesterday..i learn one thing..one thing that i should realize long before..don't trust people too much..even if he or she is the closest to u..nope..I didn't mean you darling..u r good to me..i'm referring this statement to someone, or myb certain people who were so close to me before..always helping..always be there when I need someone to talk..n suddenly..BOOM!he's lost..nowhere to find..even if I can find him, he's not helping anymore..suddenly he's not a good friend anymore..he's like a stranger...weird, I know..but yup..dat's da reality..dat we should be beware in life..people can change..anytime..just be careful..

Whatever it is, smile..that is one of the best treatment to your heart.. :)

~101010~

Assalamualaikum..

Post ni utk awk..ye..sy tau awk mungkin xbaca..yela..awak da ade owg baru..mngkin lg padan dgn awak..sy?ntahla..sy xsuke tarikh ni wlupn nombornye cantik..sbb tarikh ni la sy nmpk awk dgn die..dan sy menangis smule..sbb luka sy berdarah smule..eyh!bkn kat tgn,.kn sy da jnji dgn awk sy xkn wat sume 2 lg..luka kt ati..sy tau awk xnmpk..hurm..da stahun awk pergi dr hidup sy..wlupn awk sempat dtg blik, tp awak tetap pergi smule slepas 2..sy xfhmla awk..pe slh sy agknye?btol ke ade kwn sy andaikn awk couple dgn die sbb nk lupekn sy?n now awk da serabut sbb awk rse die xfhm awk..btol ke?klu btol, knape awk xblik je pd sy?atau awk ingt sy da btol2 move on?haih..klu btol la kn, sy terpkse setuju dgn kwn sy..bahawa kite berdua mmg ego..sgt ego..wlupn sy rase sy xptot diperslahkn cm2 sbb awk yg tinggal sy..tp ye..kite mmg ego..awk tau knape?sbb sy xpenah nk jmpe awk n ngaku yg sy xpenah move on n msih simpan stiap kenangan kite n trikh2nye n gmbr2nye dlm otak sy yg dh sedia hampir penuh ni..dan awak, ego sbb xnk ngaku yg awk msih syg sy..tp 2pn klu btol la kn..

Skang ni sy nk tny awk..bodoh ke sy ke sy klu sy syg awk?bodoh ke sy klu hati sy msih tunggu awk n yakin awk akn blik kt sy?bodoh ke sy menangis melukai hati s'dr utk kebahagiaan awk?klu awk kate sy bodoh dgn wat cm2, then sy rela jd pmpn pling bodoh dlm dunia..biarla owg nk kate apepn..biarla awk da ade die pn..sy ttp akn simpan stiap kenangan kite n trikh2nye n gmbr2nye dlm otak sy yg dh sedia hampir penuh ni..n awk akn sntiasa ade dlm ati sy..n lgu kite akn ttp sy mainkn setiap hari..oh..jap..awk ingt lagi ke lagu kite 2?or awk da lupe?hurm..mungkin awk da cipta kenangan lain n lupe pd lagu yg sy dedicate kt awk depan semua orang mse 2..n dat's da reason i wasn't there diz year..tp xpelah..sy ttp akn ingat..

Klu awak bc post ni, sy nk sgt5 awk tau yg sy sgt5 syg awk n sntiasa tgu awk blik pd sy..sgt5..time kasih awk..

~cry~

I'm not the type to get my heart broken

I'm not the type to get upset and cry

'cause i never leave my heart open

Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep to me

Never got the whole 'in love' thing

And someone can say they love me truly

But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone

I'm spinnin' 'round

And deep inside my tears are drown

I'm losin' grip

What's happenin'?

I strayed from love

This is how i feel..

This time was different

Felt like i was just a victim

And it cut me like a knife

When you walked out of my life

Now i'm in this condition

And i've got all the symptoms

Of a girl with a broken heart

But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?

'cause it's hurtin' me to let it go

Maybe 'cause we spent so much time

And i know that it's no more

I should've never let you hold me baby

Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart

I didn't give to you on purpose

Can't figure out how you stole my heart

How did i get here with you?

I'll never know

Never meant to let it get so personal

And after all i tried to do

Stay away from lovin' you

I'm broken hearted

I can't let you know

And i won't let it show

You won't see me cry..

p/s: I really5 want you, my beloved en. Muhammad, to know that I will never ever forget you for all my life..never!

~22nd years of my life~

Assalamualaikum..

Yup..I'm 22 years n 1 day old now..yesterday was my birth date..got a lot of wishes..really appreciate those..but still, can't be as same n special as we were in our school time..where facebook is still not getting glamorous..got a lot of bday cards n presents during that time..hurm..just wonder, if there is no facebook now, will I still get the same amount of thoughtful wishes as I got yesterday??huhu..whatever it is, I was still happy celebrating my bday in da last semester of uni, where everyone was wishing me having a hpy bday, giving special wishes which had been posted in front of my room's door, and a piece of Tiramisu..n my relationship with my mom was getting better..it's good to have birthday, isn't it? :)

When my sister said 'you can't buy the chemistry', I was thinking bout it..n I found that it's true u know..now, the surrounding in the music room is not as happy as before..I don't know what is going on, or what are the problems..but everyone doesn't have the same chemistry as my seniors and I had before..me myself don't feel really excited to get in there and sing and having fun anymore..I know we got what we wanted..people started to notice us..we got a lot of invitations..shows are everywhere..but still..sigh..I don't know why, but I had this feeling that Synchro 12 will not last long..n I still pray that is not true..to my brothers n sisters, if any of you read this, please be humble wherever you are..stay together no matter what kind of problems you are having by that time..listen to your manager..I'll always pray that you guys will stay together forever..really5 luv u guys..