~sekilas ramadhan~

Assalamualaikum..

It's been 19 days since my last post..nk kate bz 2 xla sgt..tp pnt plus xde idea nk tulis..mklumlah..bln2 pose ni, otak pn lembab (alasan.. ;p) so kurangla penulisan..skang lg 10 ari nk raye..lebih kurangla..kdg2 aq xfhm..npe owg2 yg bukan islam kdg2 lg tau hukum dr owg2 islam..bknla sume..tp kebanyakannye cm2..ade yg pose sekadar pose..tp langsung xamek ksmptn nk perbaiki diri n kklkn attitude baru di bulan2 seterusnye..ade gak yg lngsung xpose..n slmbe jek mmbritahu umum yg die xpose ( kcuali pmpn yg ade reason la ye) seolah2 bangga dgn pe yg die wat..adoiyai..aq ade bbrpe kwn bkn islam yg sme2 berpuasa (or at least cube berpuasa) dgn kwn2 islam diowg..diowg ni lglah..siap jg attitude bgai sbb hormat kn keberkatan ramadhan wlupn xsume yg fhm ttg keberkatan 2..aduhai..umat akhir zaman..mne letaknya ilmu yg dipelajari 2 ye??

Ari ni kecoh kt fb..ade kes buang bayi lg..yg sedihnye bangsa melayu n islam yg wat sume ni..bln pose lak 2..dlu ustazah kate, syaitan diikat di bulan ramadhan..sbb 2la bulan ni pling baik utk kejar pahala..sbb kurang gangguan..tp msih rmai lg yg xkejar peluang ni..wat dosa lak lg..2 syaitan kne ikat 2..klu x diikat?astaghfirullah..haih..xfhm gak aq kdg2..xpasan ke kiamat smkin dekat??nauzubillah..sme2lah kite renungkan..dosa n pahala kite..xd spe yg tau melainkn ALLAH n kite s'dr..

Org2 biasa ni pn lebih kurang je..yg diingat, persiapan raya..lailatul-qadar lupe..agk2la..nk shopping, shopping gak..tp xpyh la smpai abaikn solat..bkn nye xde surau n masjid berdekatan kn..kedai2 n barang2 2 xlari kmne pn..bersyukur dgn rezeki ALLAH..2 lbih baik..ni x..pas berbuka, sibuk sumenye nk ke shopping mall..ntahla..dgn sikap kedekutnye lg..1 sen pn nk berkire..walhal bulan ni la yg pling baik nk bersedekah..xfhmlah..kdg2 aq terpk gak..typical malay mind ni mmg ssh nk dibentuk n dibetulkn ke ek??wallahu'alam..

~friends vs enemies~

Assalamualaikum..

I am currently at shah alam with my beloved sister (well, we were born in da same year, but she's 1st..hehe..) and her fwens..We were having fun yesterday (well, I wasnt rly having fun coz i was not feeling well, but still, it was fun 2 feel so welcomed by a bunch of fwens who knew u 4 just a few hours), having dinner together, watching movies, chit-chatting bout all those old histories of school (it is a history since everything happened almost 10 years ago), and shopping..lots of laughters and a bit of tears rly touched my heart..how friendship bond is so strong, it still tough even though it's been 10 years now..n how the happiness is still there even though they havent seeing each other for years..

But, when it's time to share all da old histories, it will be full of surprises..u will hear about smthng that u dont expect to hear, will know smthng that u dont expect to know..n myb that 'smthng' will hurt u..well, truth is not always nice to know, isnt it? that's how u know ur fwens..some might say, "hello..it's 10 years already..come on..just forget it.." easily..it's easy for them to say, but it's not easy for us to let everything go just like that, especially when it's the thing that hurt u the most..but fwens are still fwens..aite?we'll be a bit hypocrite..still smiling even though we feel like crying..n that's how u know ur true fwen..just hope u didnt blind 2 see them..

Whatever it is, if u r a true fwens, u'll accept ur fwen the way they are..there is always hard time in any relationship..it's up 2 u whether to hold the revenge inside u, or just let it go n forgive..the true happiness will come for whatever u had decide..because it's u who make the decision..just as my sister and I who decide 2 forgive each other n still close until today..n we rly hope 2 still have each other till the end of time..thank you sis.. :)

~writing as a career~

Assalamualaikum..

Well, finding a job is not easy..it's harder than i ever thought..1 of my fwens suggest me 2 write smthing as a career..myb a short story, novel..or myb i cld even apply 2 be a columnist..columnist??OMG!!so f****** scared to hear that..i never wrote on smthing serious..even this blog was created just for fun..as a hobby i might add..but writing as a career?never cross my mind..

Diz suggestion came out when i asked her bout part time jobs..she said she'd been reading a few of my posts and think that it was nice..i had the idea..just need to learn to customize my way of expressing it..n she said myb i should write more in english rather than malay..i thought bout it (the write-in-english thing of course..) too before, since she said the reason is to increase the number of my followers..but i dnt think that's the only way..coz my number of followers still increase even when i wrote in malay..duhh!!sounds like i'm so full into myself..haha..

Whoever read this, i wanna ask 4 ur opinion, whether i should make writing as 1 of my career or not..plz..do help me fwens..tq.. :)

~pertandingan teman sejati~

Assalamualaikum..

Knapa hari ni ade 2 post?haa..2la specialnye ari ni..1 post sedih n 1 post happy..yg sedih yg td 2 la kn..yg ni yg happy lak..ari ni aq bwu ade mse nk blogwalking..so, aq bersiar2lah kt blog my beloved cousin, miss shaheera..tau2, rupenye aq telah di tag di 1 pertandingan teman sejati..pelik bunyinye..huhu..wanna know more?let's get it started..

Contest ni telah diadakan oleh miss emieysandra..

Chumil lak tgk tuan pny blog nih..huhu...die wat, n rmai la yg dh di tag termsukla cousin aq yg telah bertanggungjawab tag aq..so, knela aq cite psl teman sejati aq..dr kecik, aq mmg ade bnyk kawan n kebnykannye lelaki (mcm yg ibu panggil aq..'kak tan'..hehe..) sbb snang nk get along..bknla mksud aq xley get along dgn pmpn..ley jek..xde mslh pn..so, jom dgr cite psl teman2 sejati aq..

Aq rse bestfriend p'tama aq adalah fatimahtul zahrah zulkefly..kwn sejak form 4, which means da 6 years..da best sis ever..tau pe aq nk, pe aq rse..n sntiasa ade link bile msing2 sdih n kecewa..well, she knew me too damn well..we r like sisters..tp time gado 2, gado la gak kn..but still akn blik sperti bese..love her so damn much!!

2nd teman sejati, mstilah my best bro..syafiq sukri..being friends since 2007..1st sem di uni..susah senang bersme (knonnye..haha..) stakat ni..xpenah lg xtau pe yg terbaik utk aq..n bile aq xdgr nasihat die, slalunye pe yg aq wat 2 akn jd disaster..huhu..

Yg len, still best friends ever..especially adeq2 synchro aq..kowg mmg junior2 aq yg best sbb xmemeningkan kepala aq..luv u guys!nk letak gmbr, tp lom transfer lg..maklumlah..lappy baru..kosong la lg..hehehe..so, insan2 yg aq nk tag adalah:

mizah adam

khairul iskandar (bluekk!!)

fatimahtul zahrah zulkefly

Sampai cni jelah cite aq..nk letak sume nme kang xabes lak post ni 1 ari..huhu..thanks to everyone for being such good friends..luv u all.. :)

~August 17th, 2010~

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care

Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you..

Lagu yg menyedihkan..n mungkin mengingatkn aq pada sesuatu..atau mungkin sseorang..18 days 2 an anniversary..only if it still exist..sigh.. :(

~kekeliruan~

Assalamualaikum..

Hurm..tbe2 sayu lak hati ni rse pg2 ni..ntah knapa..smlm sblum tdo, aq berfikir..tentang diri aq, family, hidup, relationship..rse berslh..tp xtau cne nk luah..berbelah bagi..my mind keeps wondering, cne klu tbe2 kputusan aq ni slh?cne klu sbnrnye yg aq tunggu 2 xptot ditunggu?cne klu aq sptotnye sbr n biarkn 5 thun berlalu tanpa ape2 alternatif?cne klu sbnrnye mmg he meant wut he said?hurm..ssh kn klu terlalu bnyk 'what if' dlm hidup ni?sbb 1 mse, kite rse kite da wat keputusan yg terbaik..tp dlm 1 mse lg, we suddenly think that we should go on another way..ntahla..pelik..keliru..sume ade..

My beloved brother once said, "jgn tgk mse skrg, tgklah 5 thun akn dtg..kn die da kate skang die xnk pape lg"..bile aq pk, ade btolnye pe yg die kate 2..aq sptotnye bersbr..tp bile aq pk blik, in da next 5 years, i'll be 27..if, on dat time, die mmg da xblik kat aq, cne?a lady in the age of 27 yrs old..relevan ke nk pk psl cinta lg mse 2?it's nonsense i guess..ntahla..ade gak mmbr aq yg menyokong kptsan aq skang sbb he's thinking the same thing..tp ade gak yg kate kesal dgn kptsn yg aq wat sbb aq ptotnye sbr..

Aq?ntah..msih rse ragu..n xpasti..smoga ALLAH menunjukkan jln terbaik buatku..amin..

~hari pertama di bulan ramadhan~

Assalamualaikum..

Walaupun da dekat waktu berbuka (konon..padahal bwu kul 2 ptg..hehe..), aq tetap nk wish selamat berpose utk sume owg..yg berpose jela..yg x 2, xley nk kate pe la kn..hehe..hari pertama berpose ni, lom adela pape yg berlaku..tgk nnt da smggu..mcm2 hal la jdnye..besela..

Mlm td, meeting synchro 12 aq yg terakhir..mulai dr mlm td, aq bkn lg pengerusi synchro 12..hurm..sdih sbnrnya..tp nk wat cne kn..smpai bile aq nk stay dgn diowg 2..sem dpn aq xde da..so, pasrah jela..bnyk kenangan manis dgn diowg 2..surprise bday party, gurau senda, bbq..mcm2..suke duka sume ade..yg pasti aq anggap diowg cm adeq2 aq sendiri..hrp diowg terus bgun n semangat..utk cik drummer aq yg chanteq manis 2, tahniah sbb telah dinaikkan menjadi pengerusi baru..bimbingla diowg cne aq bimbing ko dlu k.. :)

Test, test n test..smpai minggu ke 7 lak 2..rse cm jap je sem ni..da nk smpai separuh sem da..erks..tkot lak..hrp2 dpt abes..insyaALLAH..

Apepn, smoga ramadhan kali ni memberi 1001 keberkatan, kenikmatan n keiunsafan kpd kite sume..amin.. :)

~bahagia~

Assalamualaikum..

Isnin lg..adoi..bilela nk abes study kn..da xlarat rsenye..xsbar nk brehat..wlupn aq tau bekerja juga perlu berfikir, tp rsenye cm xseberat study kot..huhu..tp aq still bhgia la..berat bdn nek 5 kg kot..adoiyai..kne turunkn blik nih..nseb bwu nmpk ckit jek perubahannye..kot x, naya aq..

Well, menghabeskn weekend di rumah adalah amat menyeronokkan sbnrnye..lg2 bile bersme dgn yg tersyg n dpt sume yg kowg nk..weekend kali ni, aq abeskn kt jb..niatnye nk jumpe cik abg..so, bg alasan nk wat medical check-up smbil mengambil kesempatan dlm kesempitan..hehe..

1st, nk cite psl part xbest dlula..ari khmis pg 2, aq gerakla g bukit jalil dgn sempoinye utk membeli tiket utk blik jb on da spot..smpai2, besela..bnyk lak ulat yg menempel..wat bodo jek la kn..smpai kaunter, aq twos beli tiket tnpa usul periksa slps menelefon abah n tny mne nk turun sbb on dat particular day abah ade check up kt pakar jb so family aq ade kt jb..xkejela sume owg..mse 2 bwu 1030 pg..so, aq bajet dlm kul 2 smpaila kn..skali, yg aq jangka sume xmenjadi..ley lak bus ni berhenti kt seremban..okla, aq consider die nk turunkn penumpang n amek penumpang yg beli tiket kt c2..da berhenti sejam, bwula bus 2 jalan..da tergendala da kt c2..n da agk membara..ingtkn die xberhenti dh la..tbe2 berhenti lak setengah jam kt yong peng..mak ai..bengang seyh..drpd 4 jam perjalanan kl-jb, jadi 6 jam..bygknla..xnaik angin lak aq dlm bus 2..bongok tol..tmbh lak ade jantan murahan dlm bus 2 xreti bhsa kn..ko nk jual minyak pn, jgn jual murah sgtla..owg da kate xnk, means xnkla kn..ni x..seboleh2 nk kcau aq..adoiyai..tmbh kemarahan aq jek..eiy!geram!

Nsebla smpai2 ptg 2, abah twos bwk g angsana n kitowg mkn..1st food yg msuk pwot aq ari 2 adalah pd jam 5 ptg..bygknla..adoi..pdih pwot aq thn lpar..then, jln2la kt angsana..jmpe bju ni, chumil gile..aq mmg berkenanla..tp memandangkn xde duit, n tau sifat smulajadi abah yg xbpe nk pemurah 2, aq pn diamkn jela..tp ibu kate baju 2 mmg chanteq..aq pn slamba ckp kt ibu, cm nk jek baju ni..tbe2, ibu lak g btau abah..aq da cm bersedia nk mengawal perasaan hampa 2 la..tup2, abah kate, ameklah..aq pn ape lg..hentamlah..haha..mmg best..ingtkn dpt baju jek..xnkla mintak pape dah..tp teringat yg kasut da agk jahanam sbb da lme pkai..try jekla tny abah, bley ke x nk kasut..n once again, aq sungguh terperanjat bile die kate, amekla..huhu..mmg best gile la cuti kali ni..bhgia aq..hek.. ;)

Soknye, watla medical check-up..da siap sume, blik umah, abah kate nk beli pc bwu sbb pc kt umah rosak..tp nk beli parts jekla..xnk beli da whole new set..so, aq pn suggestla pape yg aq tau wlupn aq xbpe pandai sgt..tbe2 die kate, beli laptop baru jelah..along amek laptop 2, laptop along yg lme 2 tinggal kt umah..OMG!!terkejut badaklah aq..mule2 cm xnk cyla kn..aq pn ignore jekla pe die kate..bincang2, xdpt kata putus, abah g ofis die..

Sabtu dtg..time 2 date!!yeay!!pg 2 g amek result check-up dlu..doktor kate kne minum susu tepung tiap2 pg..shit!itulah yg pling aq jauhkn..yukss!!nseb ade alternatif len..ley amek vitamin yg berkalsium jek..nseb2..semput pn mkin twok..kne pkai inhaler n kne bwk g men2 jek..sbb tkot kne sudden attack..amekla 1 inhaler yg ade dgn aq skang ni..pas amek result 2, aq g r date..xdsngka2, dpt 1 gelang tgn..gile terkejut..n terharula of course..1st die kate, sorila xde present utk aq blik kali ni..tbe2 wujud lak gelang ni..skali dgn cincin lg..huhu..bertuah gile rse..then kitowg join dgn fmily aq, knonnye nk smbut anniversary my parent..tau2, abah bwk aq g kedai laptop n offer asus..perghh!!melayang-layang aq rse..tp disebabkn sod dpt dell (knela adil wlupn b4 ni keadilan 2 krng dipraktikkan..myb abah beli ni pn sbb nk pujuk aq la kot sbb aq da majok psl sod ari 2..huhu..), so aq pn amek dell..maka dr saat itu, dell pink itupn menjadi milik aq..muahaha!!tersenyum lebar aq cuti kali ni..alhamdulillah.. ;)

Kesimpulannya, rezeki dtg tanpa diduga..so, bersyukurlah..wallahu'alam.. :)