~friendship and love~

Assalamualaikum..

Sebelum aq mle menulis, aq harap kata-kata aq ni xkn wat sesiapa pn, especially my fwens rse skit ati, kecik ati, marah or segala rse yg berkaitan dgn rse2 tersebut..n aq harap gak semua yg membaca ni ley berfikir tntng pershbtn yg korg jalinkn slama ni..1 more thing, aq harap kwn2 aq sedar pe yg aq rse slama ni..post ni adalah U, xde kaitan antara hidup dan mati..

Kdg2 aq wonder, knapa aq dilahirkn sbg sorg yg xsnggup nk tgk kwn2 aq susah wlupn in the end bile aq susah kwn2 aq akn wat bodo jek n aq akn skit ati sbb aq mengharapkn at least diowg dtg menjenguk or tny bout wut I felt but they were not n finally I cried by myself on my bed n these things happen so many times..bkn aq xikhlas nk tolong..it's just when I feel like soooo depressed yg mmg gile pny depressed, treat yg aq dpt hnylah p'ktaan 'sbrla'..n it makes me wonder, aq je ke yg tau fhm ati owg n perasaan owg sdgkn owg lngsung xtau ati n perasaan aq?klu aq je cbuk nk jg ati owg, spe nk jg ati aq?n mcm yg ibu slalu ckp kt aq, ko ni klu berkwn smpai segala isi pwot ko nk bg kt owg tp bile ko ade mslh owg xpeduli pn kt ko..pd aq, in friendship, we should give n take..tp ntah knapa, bwu skang aq pasan yg aq lebih bnyk 'give' drpd 'take'..yup..dat's da reality yg aq kne percaya!2 blum lg msuk mmbr2 yg da ade bf n lupe kwn, but suddenly bile bf die wat hal bwu sibuk terhegeh2 nk cari kwn 2..klu kowg kt tmpt aq, pe kowg rse?kne mrh tntng bnd baik yg kowg wat sbb kowg je cbuk wat baik tp owg len xkisah pn nk berkorban even ckit utk kowg..pk2knla..n aq harap kowg jd kwn yg terbaik yg tau menghargai pengorbanan sorg kwn n tau cne nk balas blik pengorbanan kwn kowg 2 sbb pengorbanan sowg kwn xla sebesar pengorbanan sowg ibu smpai ssh utk dibalas..fahamilah hati sowg kwn, lbih2 lg bile kowg da kwn lme dgn die..

Skali lg aq hrp post ni xmengecikkn ati sesiapa..sbb niat aq bkn utk marah or wuteva..just nk bg kowg pk ckit realiti persahabatan n erti hadirnya sowg kwn..kwn bkn hny utk time senang je..tp utk senang n susah..n bkn hny kwn yg perlu dgr isi hati kowg, tp kowg gak perlu dgr isi hati sowg kwn..wallahu'alam..