~kekalahan~

Assalamualaikum..

Tibe2 airmata aq mengalir lg petang ni..mmg btolla kate owg, people who can lie to themselves are lonely..myb dat's wut I felt by now..lonely..it's not dat I hve no fwens..it's just far inside my heart, I felt something's missing..only GOD knows how I miss all da happy moments I had..bkn aq nk mengalah..cume kdg2 aq kalah..mne ade mnusia yg xmenangis, kn?cme ni je tmpt tuk aq luahkn pe yg aq rse..bkn xnk cte pd kwn2, tp trse menyushkan..lg2 lak aq bkn owg yg ske bercerita pd sebarang2 owg..ntahla..xbaik mengeluh..aq tau..tp dugaan ni terlalu berat utk aq..ya ALLAH..kmnela agknye kekuatn yg aq ade slme ni ek?

Mlm ni aq nk cube mengembalikn keceriaan n kesibukan bersme adik2 aq..hrp semuanya akn ok..sigh..

~pergi~

Pergi..
Jangan kembali..
Sampai sini saja..
Kita berdua..

Aku tak mampu lagi..
Jadi sang penyiksa..
Yang juga disiksa..

Sampai nanti bertemu lagi..
Tak usah diingat kembali..
Menambahkan derita hati..
Pergi..

Assalamualaikum..
Actually, aku xla ske sgt lagu ni..tp ntah knape tergerak nk tulis liriknye..mngkin sbb mksdnye kot..ntahla..bnyk versi pengakhiran kisah aku yg dicdgkn oleh org2 sekeliling aku ni sbnrnye..rmai gak yg yakin endingnye akn baik..tp aq pn xtau..sbb smpai skrg aq still xtau pe slh aq..cme ade sowg kwn aq kate, berdiam diri lebih baik..biar apepn owg nk judge aq berdsrkn kate2 die, tp jgn skali2 aq biar owg judge die dgn kate2 aq..hurm..btol gak kn..so, pas entry ni di post, no more words bout him..not even a single word..mmg bnyk soalan yg aq time..especially soalan 'npe da xpenah nmpk dgn die lg?' 2..aq pn xtau nk jwb pe..ni bwu 2 3 ari mule sem ni..klu 2 3 bulan, aq xtaula pe akn jd..cme 1 je yg aq pasti, ati aq xkn terbukak utk spe2 lg..npe?sbb aq msih syg die, sdg syg die, n akn twos syg die..always n 4eva..klu die bhgia dgn lepaskan aq pergi, biarla..aq just akn tgk je dr jauh..

Utk die, klu kite btol2 kwn, keadaan kite xkn jd cmni..kite da terlalu renggang..kononnye nk cube jd cm syafiq, nk rapat n tau bnyk tntng owg, tp crnye cm xkene..n I want u 2 remember, if u rly want smthng, then fight for it..don't be a loser..

~this is a present for you~

Lagu ini bukan di radio setiap hari untukmu

Lagu ini tidak perlu kau kembali kepadaku

Lagu ini hanya ingin kau fahami

Ku sudah teruskan hidupku

Semuanya cun saja..

Tak perlu tinggalkan pesanan di pintu rumahku

Tak perlu buat panggilan di telefon bimbitku

Ku tak perlu lagi kalau kau cuba mintak maaf

Lupakan sahaja

Diriku cun saja..

Duduk di rumah seorang saja

Menulis lagu cinta

Menggunakan kisah ini untuk diceritakan..

Cun

Hidupku kini cun saja

Sejak kita..

Memang cun semuanya..

Sejak pisah, itulah permulaannya untuk ku berhati-hati dengan buaya..

Pendirian ku tegap..

Jumlah kali kita bertengkar memang genap..

Untuk aku ke tahap ini..

Silap kita..

Memang patut sama-sama kena sepak..

Tapi bukan niatku untuk salahkan dirimu..

Aku sedar ku juga ada kekuranganku..

TAPI KALAU BERSIFAT MEMENTINGKAN DIRI SENDIRI UNTUK KEBAIKANMU KAN KURANG AJAR TU..

Duduk di rumah seorang saja

Mengarang lagu cinta

Dengan mengembalikan kisah kita

Tapi jangan perasan..

Walaupun ini bab yang baru..

Ada masa arah ku tak tentu..

Tetap rindu kehadiranmu..

Tidak patut, kerna ku takut..

Lagu ini bukan di radio setiap hari untukmu..

Lagu ini tidak perlu kau kembali kepadaku..

Lagu ini tandanya kamu masih sayangkan ku walaupun sudah tidak bersama lagi..

Lagu ini tanda yang ku masih rindukanmu walaupun sudah tidak bersama lagi..

Dengan lagu ini ku ingin memberitahu kamu bahawa aku ok..

Dengan lagu ini ku ingin memberitahu kamu jangan kata tak boleh..

p/s: i rly5 want him to know i said this..huhu..

~permulaan hari~

Assalamualaikum..

Dah lama aku tak bercerita tentang aku, kan? I keep talking bout general things like friendship n the value of life..Semalam, aku memulakan hari baru di UPM secara rasminye..hurm..sbnrnye xla bersedia sgt..sbb aq tau aq xley lari jauh..slgi nmenye tinggal sebumbung, xnk pn ttp akn jmpe gak..n tekaan aq btol..mlm td, bile g kafe dgn rum8 aq, owg 1st yg aq notice kt kafe 2 die..aq xtau die nmpk aq ke x..n I don't care..da things dat I care much is myself..aq benci diri aq kdg2..sbb xley let him go..aq rse skit..kne berpura2 dgn sume owg yg aq ok..bygknla, smpai2 smlm, dah kene usik..sume owg tau kitowg rapat, tp xsume owg tau kitowg jd gni sekarang..aq pn kdg2 pnt gak..ntahla..pg ni, nmpk die lg..tp aq pura2 xnmpk, n I guess he did da same thing..aq msih ingt, die kate, 'harap kite sme2 ley time yg sume ni takdir ALLAH, n sume ni xkn jdkn kite bermsm muke bile jmpe'..tp tau2 die yg ignore aq twos..knape cm2?aq bingung sgt..xtau ape die nk..da sbulan die xcntct aq lngsung..klu nk kate sbb family, skang ni da blik UPM da..still xcntct gak..mungkin die mmg btol2 nk aq g..pdhl he's da 1 who said, ' ok, i'll stay'..

Mungkin die xrse sakit yg aq rse..or mungkin btol pe yg owg ckp, laki ni hati kering..ley wat slmbe..aduhai..siksa..tibe2 rse cm nk time lak klu ayahanda offer g kosass..jauhla sket at least..sbb aq xske situasi ni..aq xske rse kehilangan..wlupn skdr kawan as wut he wished b4, aq ttp xske kehilangan..aq skit..sgt.. :(

~optical illusion 1~

Did you trust your eyes??

p/s: try to solve this..if A until Z is equal to 1 until 26, then what word that makes your life goes 100%? try to find the answer and tell me once you get it.. :)

~friendship in life part 5~

Bila dunia kita lumpuh, kita belajar untuk bangun semula..
Kita makan, minum, dan membuang masa seperti biasa tanpa menyedari segalanya sudah pun berubah..
Kita mungkin kehilangan peluang untuk berkata-kata dan kita mungkin terkapai-kapai untuk bersuara..
Tetapi kenangan dan pengalaman yang kita genggam selama ini akan menjadi pengikat persahabatan yang bakal kita jalinkan..

Setiap yang kita lakukan mesti kena dengan caranya..
Nak buat minuman sedap, gula, air, susu mesti secukup rasa..
Nak masak lauk mesti pilih bahan, kena pandai kawal api, dan sukatan rencah perlu tepat..
Tak lebih..
Tak kurang..
Untuk menjadikannya sesuatu yang boleh dinikmati..
Kerana setiap kesilapan boleh menjejaskan..

Akhirnya, bila kita bertemu dan saling berkenalan..
Bila kita sudah sehaluan..
Hanya masa akan menentukan perjalanan persahabatan kita..

source: kami the series

~which one are we?~

Assalamualaikum..

Hye guys..sorry bout yesterday..I didn't post any entry for you..I was a bit tired..I went to City Square JB to watch The Storm Warriors..well, quite nice but quite bored at the same time..maybe that's because I don't like to watch Chinese movie..so, since I didn't write anything yesterday, I've decided to post this entry earlier than usual..

Wanna do some experiments with me?hurm..if u wanna have fun n learn something, let's put 3 pots with water over the fire. In the first pot, put some carrots. In the second pot, put some eggs. In the third pot, put some coffee powder. Boil all three pots for 15 minutes. Then, take out what u put in make a comparison..

Have u done?What happened to the carrots, eggs, and coffee powder? Yup, you're right.. The carrots went in hard, but taken out soft. The eggs went in soft inside, but taken out hard inside. What about the coffee powder? Yes, it was disappeared, but the water has the colour n the wonderful smell of coffee..Did u get the same results as mine?

Now, let's think about life..I guess almost every people in our age n above know that sometimes life can be so hard. Things don't happen as we wish, people don't treat us like we hope, n we worked very hard but getting few results..It's normal..life is not always easy n comfortable..there will be lots and lots of difficulties through time..the question is not how you feel bout the difficulties, but how actually did u react to those difficulties?

Some of us will think that we are strong enough to face all the difficulties, but turn out to be very tired, losing hope and finally give up.there will be no more fighting spirit in the end..

Some of us are soft-hearted n so kind at the first place, but when the difficulties take place, we turn out to hate ourselves n others, n become hard-hearted.there will be no more warm feeling.the only thing left is bitterness..

Some of us will make something good n learn new things from the difficulties.we grow during those hard times, n make the world around us better.there will be a lot of experiences that will make us stronger, tougher n better..

Now let's relate everything with the carrots, the eggs, and the coffee powder..

So, which groups are we in???

Think and judge by yourself..

~Flight of the geese~

Assalamualaikum..
Hey guys..4 diz entry, i don't wanna talk so much, since i'm not feeling well..just going to share those pics with u..n da lessons that we can get from those pics..4 da 1st lesson, doing something as a team, sharing the same direction, and helping each other will make the accomplishments greater, quicker and easier..




By getting in the same tune and be unite with everyone in the group, the efforts needed to complete the task will be less. It will be easier to reach the goals, since everyone will be inclined to accept and give help..



Lesson 3, we need to have the mutual respect with each and every members of the group. We have to share all the responsibilities, gather all the abilities, and combine the faculties, talents and resource..


Courage and encouragement always help to motivate and strengthen the group members, which produce the best of benefits for the group. When there is encouragement, the progress will be greater..




No matter what happens, especially in the difficult times and great challenges, we have to stay beside each other and never to leave the group..so, as the conclusion,

If we bond together and support each other..
If we have the spirit of teamwork regardless of our difference..
If we understand the real value of friendship..
If we are aware of the feeling of sharing..

LiFe WiLL Be MoRe EaSiEr AnD tHe PaSsInG oF yEaRs WiLL Be MoRe FuLfiLLiNg..

p/s: sorry if the entry is too simple from the others..I'm not rly in a good health..sorry once again.. :'(

~salam ma'al hijrah~

Assalamualaikum..
Salam ma'al hijrah utk sume followers n p'baca blog ni.. bile thun baru dtg, msti sume sibuk prepare utk azam baru,kn? kowg da wat azam baru ke? azam yg lepas da diselesaikan ke lom? haa.. time2 cmnila kite nk musahabah diri kite sdlm2nye.. owg len wat azam thun baru, kite pn wat gak..tp owg len azamnye terlaksana, kite melopong ntah ke mne..azam baru seakan berjanji pd diri s'diri utk melakukan sesuatu..klu da jnji dgn diri s'dr pn xley nk tunaikan, apatah lg jnji dgn owg len n dgn ALLAH..fikir2knla ye wahai kwn2ku yg sgt5 aq syg..aq s'dr pn perlu mengingatkn diri aq s'dr tntang ni..so, sme2la kite sling mengingatkn..smoga kite berjaya membuat 1 perubahan yg baik utk diri kite n owg2 sekeliling kite..amin..

Haa..blik smule pd topik kite ari ni..sempena ma'al hijrah ni, aq nk share 1 lg cte dgn kowg..cte ni dismpaikn kpd aq oleh slh seorang kwn aq, nor hafizah yusof..thanks a lot miss fiza a.k.a chuck..smoga perkongsian kali ni dpt merubah hati rmai owg..insyaALLAH..

Kisah kali ni tentang sowg cikgu dgn ank2 muridnye..1 hari, sblum menamatkan sesi persekolahan, si cikgu menyuruh ank2 muridnye utk mmbawa sbrpe banyak kentang yg boleh ke sekolah utk pelajaran keesokan harinye..jd, ank2 murid yg baik ni pn ikutla kate cikgunye dgn mmbawa sbrpe bnyk kentang ke sekolah..sebaik sampai ke kelas, cikgu pun memulakan pengajarannye.."baiklah murid2, cikgu mahu kamu ukirkan nama owg yg kamu benci di atas kentang itu..stiap 1 kentang utk 1 nama". murid2 2 pn ukirlah nme owg2 yg mereka benci. ade yg menggunakan hny 1 kentang shj, n ade lak yg gune smpai 46 biji kentang.. hampir ke akhir waktu, si cikgu pun berkate, "baiklah murid2..saya lihat kamu sume sudah pn selesai menulis nama stiap owg2 yg kamu benci. cikgu nak kamu bawa semua kentang itu ke sekolah setiap hari, mulai esok. xde spe2pn yg ley tinggalkn kentang itu dgn ape jua alasan pn". Mulai dari hari itu, semua murid membawa kentang2 itu bersme mereka ke sekolah setiap hari. Lme kelamaan, mereka mula merungut. "cikgu, busuklah kentang ni.." " cikgu, beratlah nak bawa ari2.." melihatkan keadaan itu, si cikgu pun berkata, "tahukah kamu, hati kamu juga sebenarnye seberat n sebusuk itu? membenci orang akan menjadikan kamu busuk hati, n akn memberatkn hati kamu daripada menyayangi semua orang. Jadi, bukankah hati kamu dibawa bersme kamu kmne2 setiap hari?kenapa tidak kamu merungut untuk membawa hati yg busuk n berat itu? sebab kamu tidak pernah sedar bahawa keadaan hati kamu sebegitu rupa.kamu hanya tahu meletakkan rasa benci sesama kamu, tanpa menyedari bahawa tiada apa yang kamu perolehi melainkan keburukan semata." ada di antara murid2 itu yang menitiskan airmata apabila mendengar kata-kata cikgunya itu. "Sekarang, cikgu mahu kamu semua bawa kentang2 tersebut ke tempat pembuangan sampah di belakang sekolah. Cikgu mahu kamu lontar semua kentang2 itu satu persatu, bersme2 dgn rse benci yg kamu simpan selame ini. lontarlah seikhlasnye, supaya hati kamu bersih dari segala kebencian, dan memudahkan kebaikan untuk masuk ke dalam hati kamu.", si cikgu memberi arahan. Murid2 itupn lontarkan setiap kentang yang ada seperti yang diarahkan oleh si cikgu..

Jadi, sume da tau pe moral of da story kali ni,kn? jgnlah kite menyimpan rasa benci pada orang lain kerana ianya hanya akan mengotorkan hati kite..semoga kedatangan tahun baru ini membuatkan kita sedar akan perkara ini dan berusaha untuk berubah ke arah kebaikan sebagai langkah pertama untuk menjadi seorang yang baru..before we end, there's something I wanna share with you guys.. :)

Everybody is born to care
It's something we were meant to share
Not to keep to ourselves all alone
If we make room for someone new, doesn't mean that there's less for you
Only means that our circle has grown
Love knows
Love grows bigger than before
In your heart, there's always more
It's magic
The more you give it away, the more love comes back to you everyday..

~sand and stone~

Assalamualaikum..

Hey again..hurm..first of all, I wanna thank my readers who always give me lots of supports for me to continue writing..you guys are the best readers I've ever had..n thanks a lot for all those comments..if u wanna follow diz blog, u need 2 go 2 ur own page n add my url 2 da list of blogs dat u had already followed..thanks once again..

My entry for today is another story bout 2 best friends..but, before I share dat story, just wanna ask for ur kindness 2 pray for my aunt who is in da hospital now because of appendix..Hopefully she'll get better soon..amin..

This story is about 2 best friends.. Let me name them as Ali n Abu, since it quite simple, isn't it?huhu.. 1 day, they were walking through the desert. During some points of their journey, they had an argument, and suddenly Ali slapped Abu at his face. Abu was hurt, but without saying anything, he wrote 'today, my best friend slapped me in the face' on the sand. After that, they kept on walking until they found an oasis where they decided to take a bath. Unfortunately, Ali got stuck in the mire n started to drown, but Abu saved him. When Ali had recovered, he wrote 'today, my best friend saved my life' on a stone. Abu suddenly asked, "after you hurt me, I wrote it on a sand. Why is it when I saved you, you wrote that on a stone?". Then, Ali replied, "when someone hurts us, we may write it down on a sand, so that the wind of forgiveness will blow it away. But, when someone does something good to us, we should engrave it down on a stone, so that no wind can erase it.."

I love diz story.. it reminds myself to always forgive n forget, n also appreciate every nice things that people had done to me, no matter how little they are.. people make mistakes.. n they keep on making mistakes.. nobody's perfect.. even we, ourselves had done a lot of mistakes in our lives.. learn to forgive people..it will makes you feel relieve n calm.. you'll get nothing if you hold a grudge towards people.. so, 1 tips for you guys, learn to forgive people before you sleep every night as sincere as you can..

Whatever people do to you, or maybe whatever you did to people, karma still happens.. appreciate every single things that u have n u get from anywhere, anyone, at anytime.. n believe me, lots of good things will come to you.. :)

~sharing is caring~

Assalamualaikum..

Hey guys..hope all of u r fine n happy 2day..hurm..nothing special to tell bout 2day..I'm writing this entry earlier coz I wanna watch a movie or 2 2nite..I'm afraid if I didn't do so, I'll be late or maybe forget 2 share smthng with u guys..nway, I wanna tell u guys a story about a corn farmer..it might not be really interesting for u guys, but I just wanna share the value of the story..sorry 4 those who don't like it..it's impossible 2 satisfy each n every 1 of u..so, here's the story..

There is a farmer who grew corns. Each n every year, whenever he participated in the state's corn fair, he won a blue-ribbon award. 1 year, a newspaper reporter interviewed him n discovered that the farmer shared the corn's seeds with his neighbours. The reporter asked, "How can you afford to share your best corn's seeds with your neighbours, since they are also entering the same competition with you?"."Why, sir?", said the farmer, "Didn't you know that the wind picks up pollen from the ripening corn and swirls it from field to field? If my neighbours grow inferior corns, cross-pollination will steadily degrade the quality of my corns. So, if I am to grow good corns, I must help my neighbours grow good corns." Then the reporter realize that the farmer is very much aware of the connectedness in life and had eventually learned something important bout the value of life..

Do you really know what 'sharing is caring' means?most of us love 2 use that quotes, but not really share what they have. I don't say that we must share everything we have. Yes, it's true that sometimes we need to share our things to help people in need. But, what I mean here is the value that we have. The kindness, the ideas, the opinions, the happiness, and even the smile. If we wanna lead a good life, we must help others lead a good life. The value of life is measured by the lives that someone had touched. Learn your best to help people a lot, at least to make them smile. Whoever choose to be happy, must help others to find their happiness..it's good for others, and also for you.. You'll feel the difference.. You'll be satisfied by helping people n make them happy..Try it, n you'll never regret.. :)

~paradoks masa kita~

Assalamualaikum..

Penah dgr perkataan paradoks 2?hurm..tau x mksdnye?contradiction..xreti r nk translate dlm bhs melayu..since my malay is not rly good actually..huhu..tau x npe aq nk sbut psl paradoks 2?

Td time bosan2 menunggu isyak, aq bkak r slh satu dr bhn yg sowg profesor 2 bg kt abah mse diowg g kursus sme2..n slh 1 presentationnye bertajuk 'paradoks masa kita'..mule2 aq pn xtau gak pe mksud paradoks 2..pas2 ape lg, google search r..huhu..bile tgk presentation 2, wat aq berfikir..sbnrnye bnyk yg diperkatakan dlm presentation 2 btol..dunia kite dah makin maju..tp mkin bnyk kemajuan, mkin bnyk kelemahan..slh 1 nye, pakar2 dah bertambah, tp asyik bertelagah..msing2 nk menangkn pendapat msing2..sume nk kate die yg btol..lngsng xnk time idea owg lain..akibatnye?msalah yg tmbul lom slsai, jd lak mslh bru..gaduh sne cni..

Contoh lain, bnyk suami isteri yg bekerja..alasan?nk tmbh pendapatan..nk umah besar..nk bg keselesaan pd ank2 n kluarga..tp tgk news..bpe bnyk kes perceraian yg berlaku?rumah bkn men besar, tp rumahtangga?xaman..selesa ke ank2 klu cm2?mne x nye..klu mse kerja xsme, da jrng jmpe..pas2 bile blik umah, pnt n twos tdo..weekend, siapkn keje yg xsiap..ank2 terbiar ntah kmne2..nk duit, men hambur jek..xtny pn nk watpe..bhgia ke keluarga klu cm2?kurang komunikasi..last2, cerai berai..aq xla kate sume hubby n wife yg bekerja cm2..ade gak yg bijak mmbhgi mse..cme kbnyknnye melalui situasi yg aq terangkn td..pk2knla..

ade 1 lg yg menarik perhatian..ayatnye, 'kite telah meneroka bulan, tapi bermasalah nk menyeberang jalan bertemu jiran'..situasi cmni mmg sgt5 bnyk berlaku..even at my house pn cm2..my neighbour sgt5 sombong..bile kite kuar, die serta merta tutup pintu..mcm xnk bergaul..xley tgk owg lebih sket..mule nk tarik muke..kite bangga bile negara mencapai kemajuen teknologi yg membawa nama negara ke mata dunia..tp kite lupe utk menakluk dalaman kita..kita anggap mslh2 cmni remeh..kite lupe nk betulkan minda masyarakat kite..org2 atasan sibuk berkempen sne sni..tp hny utk meraih undi..bile da dpt pe yg diowg nak, kite pn diowg xpeduli..

Kite belajar cne nk hidup, tp kite lupe belajar cara utk menjalani kehidupan..masa terus berlalu..ke mana arah tuju kita?fikir-fikirkan.. :)

~kecantikan semulajadi~

Assalamualaikum..

Hurm..slalu lmbt update blog skang ni..terleka dgn keje len, smpai terlupe blog lom update..tp xpela..sbb still update gak kn..ari ni wat bnyk bende..rsenye da most important event 4 2day is mencari cikgu yg telah lama menghilangkn diri kot..she's my 1st english teacher..we used 2 be so close..she taught me a lot bout english..n now, sdg mencari die smule..da dpt sket2 info..tgu esok..mudah2an jmpe..doa2knla ye..

Bwu pas bace paper..ade 1 artikel yg menarik perhatian aq..tentang cantik..sbnrnye paper ni paper bbrp ari lpas..tgh duduk2 kt bilik adik n xtau nk tulis pe mlm ni..so, tergerak r nk selak2 paper2 lame yg ade kt bilik die ni..back 2 da article..pe p'dpt kowg ttg cantik?aq p'cy rmai yg define cantik dr segi luaran, tnpa sedar yg sbnrnye kecantikan 2 terserlah dr dlmn yg cantik..aq slalu dgr mmbr2 aq kate diowg 2 xcntik..sbnrnye kn, we are who we think we are..klu kite yakin yg kite cantik tnpa rse tinggi diri n riak, kecantikan 2 akn terserlah sendiri..sbb sume bnd yg ALLAH ciptakan ade kesempurnaan n kecantikan tersendiri..percaya pd diri lebih baik drpd kurang keyakinan diri n mule mmbazir duit g wat pmbdhn plastik, botox n so ever..sume 2 mmbahaykn diri s'dr..

Sbnrnye nk jd cantik bkn ssh..artikel dlm paper ni cite psl cr nk serlahkan kecantikan semulajadi yang kite ade..1st, bgun awl pagi n jgn amalkn tdo siang..sbb amalan 2 akn jadikan muke kite nmpk sembab..n it's actually true..lgpn kn klu tdo blik pas subuh or bgn lewat, rezeki jd terbantut..so, bljr2la bgun pg2 pd sspe yg terse.. ;p

Tau x npe kulit kite bnyk kedut?antara faktor2nye kn, kerap bersalin, merokok, krg tdo, stress n p'cmrn bhn kimia dlm produk kecantikan..xslh klu kite nk try produk2 yg ade kt psrn 2..cume berhati2..baik cr yg btol2 berasaskn bhn smulajadi..tkot nnt bkn mkin cntik, tp mkin buruk lak jdnye..ade gak cr tradisional..amek sbiji kuning telur dgn 1 camca teh minyak bijan..kacau, pas2 spu pd muka..biar kering jap, pas2 bilas smpai bersih..klu nk tau berkesan ke x, cubela..aq pn xcbe lg ni..insyaALLAH klu aq rjin aq try..

Bnyk lg cr nk jd cntik..yg penting, hati kne bersih n sntiasa bersyukur..jgn simpan dendam n rse iri hati..slalu amek wudhu'..snyum slalu..bnykla..well, klu kowg pn nk share pape fakta kecantikan yg kowg tau, silela k..mne tau bergune utk sume owg..

Apepn, kecantikan adalah hak milik setiap insan.. :)

~cerita kedai kopi~

Assalamualaikum..

Cerita kedai kopi..sbnrnye xde kaitan pn dgn lgu cite kdai kopi yg slalu ade kt radio xfm 2..cme entry kali ni xde info menarik..just nk share dgn kowg pe yg berlaku ari ni..so, cm cite yg owg slalu cite kt kdai kopi r kn..ehee..n diz entry is actually bout yesterday..huhu..sorry..

Pagi ni aq cm kurang sihat sket..myb sbb xckup tdo n agk penat slps kuar 2 ari berturut2 kot..smlm ibu watkn ubat utk terseliuh cm yg aq share dgn kowg b4 ni 2..n pg td aq rse kaki aq da ley berjln dgn cr yg normal..alhamdulillah..kuasa ALLAH kn..so, skang ni kaki aq skali lg berblut dgn ubat yg sme..

Ptg td, aq g wat rwtn resdung..skali lg aq rse sgt5 kagum dgn alam sekitar yg telah ALLAH jdkn ni..bnyk sgt ubat yg ade kt sekeliling kite sbnrnye..cme kite je yg xtau..n rwtn 2 mmg jd..aq rse lega n selesa utk bernafas..well, besela..pas rwtn, kne mkn ubat..nseb bek sket jek..ade ubat utk migrain skali..mudah2an smuanye berkesan..insyaALLAH..

Sian kt adk aq yg laki 2..die semput n tibe2 kena gegata mlm ni..rushing bwk die g hospital td..nseb bek ok pas kne injection..tkot gak tgk die..nk ckp pn xley..hurm..

Apepn, good night everyone..may all of u have sweet dreams.. :)

~genap sebulan~

Assalamualaikum..

Actually entry ni sptotnye ditulis b4 kul 12 tgh mlm td..tp sbb da terlewat, jd tarikhnye jd 12 hb..tp xpela..ad cte yg aq nk ctekn..smlm, mse aq belek2 fb aq, aq tergerak ati nk bkk page kwn aq ni..kitowg bknla rpat sgt, tp 1 skola r..dlu aq agk rpt dgn kwn baik die..mse tgk2 2, aq tgk r gmbr2 die..tau x,ade 2 bnd yg mengejutkn aq..1st, die da kawen thun lpas lg n aq xtau pape..tp aq xslhkn die r..sbb mse 2 aq lom addicted dgn fb ni lg..2nd, die da ade ank yg berusia 2 bulan n sgt5 comey..OMG!!aq bwu realize yg aq da tertinggal bnyk fakta pnting psl die..I said sorry 2 him n congrates him wlupn da terlmbt sgt..bile tau rmai mmbr2 da kawen ni, aq jd cm excited lak..bkn excited nk kawen tau..just excited sbb tgk mmbr2 happy..n sdikit sedih gak..sbb kbtulan lak smlm genap sebulan aq n die clash..terkenang r gak..tp xpela..aq time seadanya takdir yg dah ALLAH tuliskn utk aq..mungkin dugaan ini akn m'dtgkn kebaikn utk aq kelak..

Smlm aq kuar lg..seharian lepak..borak2 n tukar2 p'dpt..ade sowg dak tny aq, pe p'dpt aq klu die nk smbng stdy?nk amek kos pe?then, aq pn bgla p'dpt aq yg mngkin dpt bg panduan gak bg spe2 yg membc..klu kowg realize pe minat n kebolehan kowg (minat n kebolehan bley jd lain2 tau..), ikutla kebolehan..aq nk share pnglmn aq..dr skola rendah, smpaila ke matriks, aq mmg excellent dlm math..xkre sme ade add math or math modern..n mmg aq minat dgn math..jd, aq pn dgn confidentnye isi borang UPU, mntak math..bile da dpt n da 5 sem dok kt UPM 2, aq mule sedar yg aq da wat pilihan yg slh..1, sbb aq ingtkn math kt uni sme dgn math yg aq belajar sblum2nye..ternyata penilaian aq slh..2, aq bwu sdar, minat aq kt math hnyla utk menyelesaikan masalah n bknnye on theories..sdgkn kt uni, owg2 yg amek math kne bljr more to thories n proving..yg lebih gawat, aq mule sedar yg sbnrnye kebolehan aq more 2 counselling, psychology n bnd2 yg memerlukn kajian ttg human..bkn scr sains mksd aq..more 2 keadaan sekeliling..malangnye, aq da pn sparuh jalan dlm kos pure math ni..so, nk x nk, aq kne gak truskn..so, nsht aq, pd spe2 yg realize kebolehan die, bek ikut kebolehan..tp klu xtau pe kebolehan die sbnrnye, trusknla ikut minat..or ikut peluang kerja..mne yg bg peluang yg lebih cerah dlm industri kerjaya..

Apepn, bile kite sedang berlari kegembiraan, jgn lupe utk memandang ke bwh..bimbang nnt kite akn terjatuh kesakitan..

~hari yang agak memenatkan~

Assalamualaikum..

Pheww!!gile penat ari ni..bru je smpai umah..mandi pn lom..ehee.. ;p tp xpela..demi rse sygnye pd blog ni n pd all da followers, aq menyempatkan diri utk update gak..for da whole day long aq kt luar..disebabkan abah ade check up ari ni, so aq knela tlg jg kdai mak aq sbb die kne tmnkn abah g hospital..penat gak..mklumla, kaki aq ni lom baik sgt..tbe2 cm da kne diri lme2..tp xpe..aq enjoy..jmpe rmai owg wat aq kurang kesempatan utk pk or teringat bnd2 yg meresahkan aq..4 ur info, my dad wat bypass 2 thun lpas..n skang ni, die msih di bwh pengawasan doktor..2 yg kne g check up once every 3 months..

Ble diowg blik, aq g pasar lak..cm besela..beli ikan n pape yg ptot utk dimasak..nseb owg xrmai sgt td..so, xdela sesak pasar 2..n xdela aq rimas sgt..hehe..smpat gak mak aq kirim halba (I dnt rly know whether the spelling's rite or not, tp bnd ni digune utk wat nasi lemak), serai n santan..mle2 aq ingt die nk msk nasi lemak..rpe2nye die bru dpt info utk ubat parts of body yg terseliuh..hurm..myb aq ley share dgn kowg..klu ade parts of da body yg terseliuh, rendam halba dgn segenggam beras smpai lembut..then, serai 2 potong kecik2..pas2 tumbuk sume skali n sapu kt tmpt yg terseliuh 2..insyaALLAH baik r nnt..

Actually, aq dpt bnyk video n artikel drpd sowg profesor yg abah aq kenal mse die kursus..dsbbkn abah aq kate aq ni ske mmbaca, die bg r sume bnd 2..aq nk share dgn kowg sbnrnye, tp mase xm'izinkn utk aq explore sume bnd 2..nk wat cne kn..nntla..bile aq da free, aq wat review psl sume 2 k..

Apepn, utk hari ni, aq jst dpt 1 lirik lgu utk aq share dgn kowg..td t'dgr lgu ni..agk bermkne r..utk peringatan aq, n kowg yg bermslh gak..

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Airmata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan
Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bjaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pengajaran yang bererti
Semoga kepergianmu tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu ku lawan kesepianku..

~keresahan hati~

Kesunyian bertamu
Membawa kenangan lalu
Teringat detik waktu
Kali pertama bertemu

Kita insan biasa
Punya hati dan jiwa
Walau telah ku cuba
Namun ku tak berdaya
Menolak rasa cinta

Mulanya begitu sempurna
Kita bersama berdua
Berjanji setia
Hingga ke akhirnya

Namun ku keliru
Mentafsir hatimu
Kau sejenak membisu
Lantas meninggalkanku

Oh my dear God
This feeling is so hard
Why can't it fades away
Like the wind that blows my hair?

Pujaanku,
Ku mahu kau tahu
Apapun yang berlaku
Ku setia menunggu
Tibanya saat itu
Kau dan aku
Bersatu..

Assalamualaikum..
Entah kenapa mlm ni aq terasa nk menulis..hati aq sekali lagi resah bile memikirkan si dia yg telah pergi..hari ni, genap 2 minggu dia menghilang tanpa khabar berita..i don't hear anything from him..not even a single word..i started 2 cry..n wondering why..

Duhai hati, teguhlah menghadapi dugaan ini.. Ya ALLAH, sekiranya ini dugaan untukku, Kau berikanlah juga aku rezeki yang dapat memudahkan perjalanannya..amin..

~movie review: 2012~

Assalamualaikum..

Petang tadi, berjaya gak aq tgk 2012 yg digembar-gemburkan oleh sume owg 2..klu ikut ati, xnk tgk sbnrnye..sbb cm rmai jek yg kate xbest..tp tgk gak..yela, nnt bleyla bg personal point of view kn..hurm..klu nk suh bg rating, aq rse aq bg 2.5 out of 5 kot..sbb citenye bese2 je..

Dr segi jln cite, sedikit bosan r..slalunye aq klu tgk movie, aq xkn chatting or wat bnd lain kcuali mkn..tp td, aq rse cm agk ngantuk bile tgk cite 2..so, aq ley tgk smbil lyn fb gak..kirenye 2 mmg ade tnda2 yg cite 2 agk membosankan..lg2 endingnye..cm xthrill sgt r..

Dr segi nilai, ok sket kot..sbb wat aq terfikir, sempat ke aq nk bertaubat sblum kiamat menjelang tibe..effect yg die gne 2 wat aq pn cm tkot jdnye..jd terfikir, ni ke yg akn jd bile kiamat nnt?atau lg teruk?n ksih syg yg die tunjukkan 2 pn agk bgus..ske tgk cne sowg ank yg aslnye xske ayahnye jd amek berat, parent yg divorce berbaik smule, n how a father cares bout his children..cne 1 family bersatu padu utk overcome sume halangan 2..n cne kite ptot tau sshnye nk jmpe owg yg snggup sme2 bersusah pyh dgn kite..kdg2 ade owg yg bile sng kate syg, bile ssh pentingkn diri je..tinggalkn kite..

Apepn, msng2 ade pndpt s'dr..pd aq cite 2 bese je..xmenarik perhatian aq sgt..

~penghargaan~

Assalamualaikum..

Hari ni aku lalui seperti biasa..wat keje2 umah, layan fb n mendownload movie (ssuatu yg jarang aq wat bile kt umah sbb abah slalu beli dvd n aq copy jek utk bwk blik hostel klu ctenye best)..bile da gne streamyx wifi ni,xdela aq stuck kt ruang tamu jek klu nk gne internet..smbil baring kt bilik tdo pn bley gak..agk menyeronokkan n memudahkan..

Entry kali ni, aq rse mcm nk bg penghargaan kt owg2 yg aq rse bnyk gak membantu aq..kire agk penting bg aq r..sbg tnda time kasih..aq xde hadiah nk bg..cume ALLAH je yg dpt balas jasa kowg..hope dgn adenye entry ni, kowg tau btapa pentingnye kowg utk aq..n hope kowg akn stay by my side 4ever..hope we can still be friends till da end of time..

1st, sowg pmpn..die ni aq da anggap cm kakak aq da..kitowg kawan da nk msuk 6 thun..yela, thun dpn kn da 2010..sblum kwn dgn die ni, aq xla ske sgt kt die..mungkin dipengaruhi oleh org2 sekeliling kot..aq pn xtau npe 1 day aq tergerak nk tegur die n tolong..mungkin 2la cara ALLAH nk temukn kami..aq msih ingt saat2 2..mmg xley lpe r..bile aq mule kenal die, aq rse die xseteruk yg diowg ni kate..sbnrnye dlm diri die ade sorang pmpn yg sgt memahami, baik n penyayang..kitowg penah gak gaduh..lame..mse 2 aq pn ingt ktowg xkn baik da..tp takdir skali lg tertulis utk kitowg..berbaik smule n trus jd lebih rapat..smpaila sekarang..Alhamdulillah..aq bersyukur sgt kenal die ni..aq rse die lg kenal aq drpd family aq knal aq..we share lots of things..love u my dear..rly5 hope diz friendship will last 4eva..

2nd, lelaki..yg ni lak, aq da anggap cm abg aq..wlupn ktowg kwn bwu 2 thun (klu xsilap), tp ktowg sgt rapat..cre ktowg kenal xla pelik..xunik pn..melalui friendster..tp aq xsngka r ktowg twos berkwn smpai skang..sbb aq ingt die ni sme je cm dak2 yg tgur2 aq kt friendster 2..drpd msg2 kt friendster, ktowg tuka no tepon..then msg kt tepon lak..aq ingt cne ktowg jmpe 4 da 1st time..die dgn kwn die, n aq dgn kwn aq..ktowg lunch sme2..2la 1st time aq jmpe die..die ni gak punca aq kembangkan bakat aq kt kolej 12 2 smpaila aq dpt pegang synchro 12 skang..2 b honest, aq syg die..die mmg sowg abg yg baik..cme aq ni je kdg2 degil sket..xnk dgr nasihat..hehe..tp die slalu ade utk aq bile aq perlukn die..n aq rse die pn fhm sgt da perangai aq..die ni gak penah wat my ex jeles..sbbnye, my ex trse aq lebihkn die ni..yela..aq rse selesa utk share ape je dgn die..kdg2 my ex pn xtau psl things yg aq share dgn my bro ni..awek die yg skng ni comey..lembut jek..aq suke..hope diowg ni kekal r..wlupn aq xpenah jmpe awek die yg sblum ni, tp aq rse aq ske yg ni lg kot..huhu..apepn, thanks a lot bro..u're always the best bro ever..

3rd pn lelaki..yg ni aq bwu je knal..well, mngkin xbpe kenal r..sbb die ni agk ssh nk luahkn mslh die kt owg..kire cm agk perahsia r..kitowg kenal pn melalui my ex..n die ni pn penah wat my ex jeles..sbb aq pnh kate kt my ex yg die ni cute..hehe..tp mmg cute pn..muke die comey..ssuai dgn umur die r..perangai die slalu nk wat owg gelak..pn akn sntiasa ade bile aq perlukn die..mungkin die s'dr bosan bile aq asyik cite bende yg sme..wlupn aq xshare sume bende psl aq dgn die, tp bile aq cite mslh aq, nasihat die slalu membantu n wat aq berfikir..n bg aq kekuatan..aq ske cr die kwl emosi die..wlupn die ade mslh, die cool..sgt baik..hope 2 know u better k my dear..

Utk kwn2 aq yg lain, wlupn aq xmention kowg dlm entry ni, kowg ttp penting utk aq..n aq tetap syg kowg..friends forever.. :)

~lying to myself~

Assalamualaikum..

Dah beberapa hari aq xmenulis..baru balik dr kampung kt mersing mlm semalam..makcik kawen..ske tgk die..happy jek..n ske gak dgn cite cinta die..die jumpe hubby die januari, bertunang julai, then kawen disember..well..jodoh msing2la kn..mse mjlis 2 pn best gak..cm bese, aq kene nyanyi beberapa lagu utk tetamu n pengantin..alhamdulillah..sume berjalan lancar..penat sketla..tp overall best..

Pd ari yg sme, kwn aq kawen..aq rse die ni r dak mrsm batch aq yg 1st kawen..tgk gmbr, nmpk hubby die syg gile kt die..tahniah DJ.smoga perkahwinan ni kekal smpai ke ank cucu..insyaALLAH..

2 majlis ni yg wat aq terfikir, perlu ke aq risau tentang aq yg msih lom dlm serious relationship sdgkn thun dpn aq da nk msuk 22 thun?rmai yg tny, da ade bf atau lom..alasannye, sbb da 22 thun..hurm..ade gak yg kate, bile tgk kwn2 kawen, rse xsbr nk ade boy..aduhai..ingt bercinta 2 senang?klu slh pilih org, kite yg merana..ntahla..wat mse ni, aq msih lom pk nk mulekan relationship baru..sbb 2 be honest, aq mmg msih syg die..n aq xmmpu lupe die..wlupn ade yg dtg n cube nk msuk dlm ati aq ni, tp aq ttp xdpt nk time..ni r penangan die..hurm..

Masuk ari ni, da 11 ari die xcontact aq lngsng..xtny khabar pn..aq mule curiga n terfikir yg bukan2..slh 1 nye, bile teringat kwn aq penah tny, die da ade owg lain ke?aq pn mule terfikir bende yg sme..die sbnrnye da ade owg len ke?aq xtau spe yg dpt jwb soalan aq ni..aq xtau spe yg btol2 tau pe yg ade kt ati die sbnrnye..aq syg die..nk die..hny die..tp ntahla..die lngsng xpedulikn aq..xmcm sblum ni..wlupn kitowg break up, die still tny khbr aq..tp kali ni x..aq rindu..sgt5 rindu..trse cm die terlalu jauh dr aq..

People who can lie to themselves are lonely..mungkin ade btolnye..sbb aq mle rse aq sunyi wlupn aq ade kwn2 aq..my bstfriend pn da cbuk dgn bf die..aq call pn da ssh nk angkat..da xbnyk mse utk dgr mslh aq..aq xslhkn die..sbb aq tau spe2 pn akn lalui saat 2..cume aq trse sedih..n kehilangan..

Semoga ALLAH tunjukkan jalan penyelesaian yang terbaik utk aq..

~melankolia~

Sayu melihatmu..
Dingin tubuh di sisiku..
Wajah..
Senyumanmu..
Tiada lagi detik itu..

Melankolia buat kita..
Cinta ini dugaan-Nya..
Maha Esa..mengertilah..
Ku pinta simpati..

Andai dikau pergi..
Airmata mengiringi..
Mungkinkah kau di sana bahagia, lebih sempurna?

Maha Esa..Simpatilah..
Melankolia milik kita..
Maha Esa..mengertilah..
Melankolia cinta kita..

Melankolia..maksudnye depressed..or myb I should say tekanan..entah kenapa malam ni aku teringatkan die..teringatkan segalanya tentang kami..terasa ingin memberitahu bahawa aku telah melakukan pembaharuan pada diri aku..walaupun aku dah janji pada diri aku, n pada orang2 sekeliling yang sangat5 prihatin tentang sakit yang aku rasa, yang aku takkan ingat die lagi..aku akan berubah n moved on..tp ntahla..aku xdapat halang kenangan untuk datang bertandang..aku tak pernah mintak semua ni untuk datang..mungkin keadaan aku sekarang membuatkan emosi aku kurang stabil (maybe u guys xtau keadaan ape, but i guess most of da gurls know)..just hope everything will be fine..

Azam baru..kebanyakan orang dah mula berbinang tentang ni..azam aku?nak mulakan hidup baru..menjadi aku yang baru..tanpa dia..aku hanya ada kawan-kawan aku yang banyak membantu..thanks a lot..really appreciate ur efforts..

Apepn, I love my new hair..n my new look..ni adalah satu permulaan kepada perlaksanaan azam tahun baru.. :)